feistyred12

I have changed
I have seen pain
I have experienced pain
I have prayed for family
I have made a connection
I have thought about my cousin
I have made realizations that brought tears to my eyes
I have been thankful for her safety
I have had fun through the pain
I have felt joy despite surrounding sadness
I have need to adjust my life
I have made a step in a direction
I have felt fear but pushed on
I have changed for good
I have changed for the better
I have changed

My cousin was adopted from Romania. I realized that if she had not been adopted, she probably would've become a child prostitute. my cousin currently has a mental disorder from not enough love as a kid, which probably would've made her turn to that for love. She deserves better and now she has it. Let her be blessed.
I don't know how all this makes me feel. I am crying like I've never cried before. I haven't seen her in so long b/c of her condition. I miss her.
It also didn't help being made fun of with ginger jokes :(